They’re getting better, but I’ve barely touched them all day. ;______;

My poor babies. 

I just want someone who won’t cheat on me
and won’t lie to me.

Is that so much to ask? 

“To be strong
to be willing
to be able to believe.
To have hope
To feel the warmth on my ragged bones.

No matter the hell
I want to carry the fire. “

-Rantings to No One

Or to that party. Seeing him and her and just.

Yeah. It wouldn’t have been fun for me.

Also, I would have been sick. Cause I am now.

So, yeah.

Though it’s password protected. In these times, where I feel the most alone, I think I need a place to vent without being judged or lurked. 

Of course you won’t reply back. But. I expected that.
I really shouldn’t get my hopes up.
do you still read this? 

It feels weird to be back home. I’m not really sure how I feel about this yet. But for the most part, I’m calm. Numb, even. I’m pretty much out of tears, though my eyes still have the stinging sensation. 

I just realized I’m wearing the same thing I wore yesterday. Cute.

No, really. I do. I cringe every time I see myself smile.

This makes me happy. I’ll finally get to see her after the news. I don’t know who’ll I’ll see on the side of that visit. Regardless, I’m happy. In a sense.